The line we draw between reality and fantasy is a fragile thing, a brittle house of glass that requires only one small pebble, one hairline crack, to fall shattering to the ground.
I saw her again.
I saw her again, and my psyche, like our metaphorical house of glass, burst into a million sparkling pieces.
I was seven when I watched her die, and I was thirty when I spied her outside in the pouring rain, holding an umbrella in her right hand, along with a smoldering cigarette in her left.
I can already hear what you’re going to say next. How do I know she was the same person? People look like other people all the time. And if not for what happened next, I’d say you were right.
The world, dreary and gray, took on a hollow, distant cast. I thought, surely, I must be dreaming. I wanted to move on, wanted to shy away from the uncanny encounter before I could be undone. But in such mad and dreamlike moments, we do odd things—dangerous things we wouldn’t dare attempt by the ordinary light of day.
I pulled up beside her, not minding the cold and the damp and the pelting rain, and I said, “Excuse me, don’t I know you from someplace?”
In the instant before she turned, I thought, This is all a misunderstanding. The crawling goosebumps will pass, and when I see for myself that she isn’t the same person, that it was only a bit of déjà vu, I’ll wander on, shaking my head and wondering how I could have been such a fool.
But then she looked at me, and she was the same person, and I stood there in a hapless stupor as her lips curled into a malicious sneer.
“Hello, Joseph. How good to see you again.”
That from the woman I watched die.
That from the woman I helped my father kill.
“Say hello to your father for me.”
Then she turned away, just another stranger in the pouring rain. First I was walking. Then jogging. Then running. I careened down the puddle-laden street, convinced she was right behind me, ready to mete out cold, hard justice at last.
Murderer, whispered a part of myself I’d locked away for twenty-three years.
Impossible, shrieked another.
And inside, in the manic chambers of a shattered mind, a million shards of my broken soul clambered and shouted at once.
Now I am broken, and like Humpty Dumpty, all the King’s horses and all the King’s men couldn’t put me together again.
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Awesome!! The ending was unreal!!
Thank you!
Brilliant – and speaks to my,position today
Thank you! Glad you liked it 🙂