Trapped Between Worlds
This post was originally published through Patreon on March 20, 2018.
It was too much too fast. Another world strobed in and out of view, and Kevin clapped his hands over his ears and closed his eyes.
“Stop.”
For a moment, the flow of otherworldly sensations surged. Then slowly, reluctantly, they petered out, until after a span of minutes or hours—Kevin couldn’t say—light from the world outside greeted his pupils once again.
He let in a lungful of air. Let it out.
In.
Out.
The world, along with the park bench on which Kevin sat, came back into focus.
The sun, warm against his skin, provided some comfort. It made the Earth feel a little more tangible, a little more real. That was a rare feeling now, and he treasured it, held it close like a newborn child.
For the thousandth time, Kevin questioned his sanity. He’d once had a schizophrenic uncle who went off his medication, and he could remember the man sitting in a secluded corner of his grandmother’s house, laughing and whispering at people who weren’t there.
But wasn’t the definition of insanity the inability to distinguish between reality and fantasy? If Kevin was crazy, why did he feel the need to ask himself if he was sane?
A child shouted in the distance as if punctuating the thought, and he turned to see a little girl in the playground tear through the air on a swing.
Kevin remembered when he himself had been a child. Ages ago, it seemed now, a whole other life. The fantasies had taken him hostage then, too. But it hadn’t occurred to him until he was much older that something might be wrong.
Like a ghost, he’d slip back and forth between two worlds, an effortless transition that always seemed so innocent, so normal, so natural. Mom and Dad would send him outside to play, and he would hydroplane across the stars, sliding through an alternate reality that seemed custom built for him.
He was just using his imagination, he assumed, like every other boy and girl his age. Then he turned into a teenager, and things took a turn for the worst.
He would hang out at school, chatting with friends, or trying to talk to the pretty girl who sat across from him in Math, and all of a sudden the visions would return, as lucid and as real as his life at school. Then, when he finally came back to himself, he’d be wandering the halls like a zombie, or sitting on a toilet in one of the bathroom stalls, or even walking home, with no recollection of the intervening hours.
He never talked to anyone about his sudden lapses. For him, they were something to be ashamed of. He was afraid, and so, one by one, he withdrew from his family and his friends, while inside, he quietly went mad.
Incursions of that other world into his own increased, until it was happening all the time, until he could no longer tell up from down or left from right.
Now he was twenty-seven and still lived at home, with no prospects for college or work.
I’m lost, he thought. Lost in the space between two worlds. It was a terrible kind of half-life that he hated bitterly.
Light. It tugged at Kevin’s eyes once more. This light wasn’t from the sun but from someplace elsewhere, a luminescence that was different in both quality and intensity. Blue sky and clouds one moment gave way to star-studded black the next.
“No,” Kevin whispered. It was happening again. “Stop.”
But it didn’t stop. In the end, it never stopped.
The world flickered, and Kevin, whimpering, closed his eyes and waited to be taken again.
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